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date/time Wednesday, June 23, 2010,5:32 AM
Day 3: Not Good
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,
that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.
I've missed a day already? I don't know whether to laugh or to cry. I blame the devil for giving my mother a bad day, which led her to redirect her anger and criticism to me, innocent me. I also blame myself for not being able to swallow my pride and getting angry at my mom for what she calls "being motherly." Heck, I also blame the fact that my summer days are wasted at home vegetating.
But today, Day 3, I washed the dishes. Twice. Yeahhh. Actually, this isn't even remarkable since I've completed this mundane task twice a day in the past. *SIGH*
I also helped make my not-so little brother further smile about completing his sophomore year in a very academically challenging science and engineering program in high school. I'm so proud of him. He's growing up to become so witty and wise. LOL. Seriously, he's smarter than both of his older sibs. That's saying a lot since our older brother graduated from the same program and is currently president of the engineering organization at our university. (Hey a sis is allowed to brag about her bro bros, right? Indulge me.) And me, well I won't say anything since I really feel like I was a big fish in a small pond during high school and lost my golden fins swimming in the Atlantic.
I want my fins back. God, please feed me some fish flakes, nnn? Labels: dishes, smile
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date/time Sunday, June 20, 2010,4:13 PM
Day 1: Baby Steps
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,
that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.
At church today, I smiled greater than usual as I said, "Peace be with you."
It's kinda lame, but it's better than nothing. Plus, I love it when people smile at me and look like they genuinely mean what they say as the warmly grip my hand. My hands are always warm...and not to be vain, but I've been told I have a really kind and sweet smile. Hey, it's all I've got going for me -___-;;
I have a feeling a lot of my acts will just be based on the contagious (and healing) powers of a smile. (｡◕‿‿◕｡) See, don't you feel better?
Btw, today's message was to make us consider who we say Jesus is. We must be willing to lose our lives for Him (to not be afraid to say we believe in Him and love Him), so that we may gain everlasting life with Him. Now that I'm reflecting on this, I realize I am a bit afraid to tell others about Him because of what they might think about me. I need to get over this if I'm going to spread the Good News with acts of love. *SIGH* It's okay. Baby steps, Meliss. Ganbaremasu, hwaiting, jia yo!
LOL at cheering myself up.
Dear Heavenly Father, please grant me some of your strength. I cast out all inhibition, all fear. I live for you alone~♫ Labels: smile
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The story behind the blog…
In early June 2010, I was deeply saddened over the separation and isolation of a group of close brothers. They came together against all odds under God’s will, pleasing Him with their given talents, and brightening millions of others’ lives. Although I have not had the pleasure of meeting any of them, my life has been changed because of their hard work. By God’s wisdom, I’ve realized the chain reaction of goodness this has created in my fellowship. I know God is using these guys in an amazing way despite their worldly profession, and so, everything they do has been blessed by Him. Therefore as their continuing hardships deepened to the point of public breakdowns, I once again took up praying for their reunion.
It soon occurred to me that however much they miss each other and wish to stand together once again, how much more devastated they would be knowing they could never be together ever again. For eternity.
I know heaven has no tears and no sadness, but wouldn’t you feel regret for never telling your brother about the life-saving power of Jesus? Wouldn’t you feel somewhat responsible for your brother being forever separated from God? Imagining one brother without the others, apart for all time, led me to into a terrible fit of crying. I prayed for their salvation, especially for the three who are said to be non-Christians.
Then, I prayed for everyone like them. I wanted everyone to be saved. But how much could I do to save them? I could pray and pray, but God doesn’t force anyone to accept him. He gave us a choice, freewill. It is a Christian’s duty to spread the Good News, in order to nudge people closer to the Lord. I have to somehow nudge a select few brothers halfway across the globe to 99.99% saved so they could take that last 0.01% step toward Christ.
But how?
Even if I had their contact information, I don’t speak their language and no way with words at that! I have no money. No talent.
I really have nothing but compassion. A heart.
Then it hits me. God hits me.
He says I have this cup overflowing with His love. I need to pour out love into others’ cups to help them realize their cup is also overflowing because of God. The 99.99% is reached by love. That’s why God said long ago that we must love thy neighbor as thyself, because after all, God is love.
So I have taken it upon myself to pour love into people’s cups, sharing with them God himself…all to reach a certain set of brothers.
Convicted by God and inspired by Pastor Jaeson Ma‘s 365 Days of Love resolution, I will do one act of kindness for someone each day for the rest of my life. This is a major challenge, but take it up I must. Hopefully, these people that I love, be they friends or strangers, will have their cups filled and overflowing.
I ask that you pray, not only for me on this endeavor, but for everyone’s hearts.
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